Well, today was interesting. I had my very last flute lesson EVER with Dr. Lane. Needless to say, I was very sad! It was kind of nice because I nailed some really tough passages on the Bricchialdi (Carnival of Venice), and we sightread some fun duets. Got a little tough to play for a little bit because my lip was quivering, but it worked out. It's so weird to me to know that this is it, the end of my college career. I feel so young thinking all of these things, because I know that so many people I know have already gone through it, but it's just WEIRD.
Not long ago, I was finishing up my freshman year, and didn't think this day would ever come, the day that I leave campus forever to join the ranks of those in the "real world." Sure, I still have student teaching left, but I'm isolated up north, the only one in my class to be so far away from everybody. As I sit here now and think about this, it's becoming more and more apparent that college is a time that should not be wasted; it comes and goes so quickly that you suddenly find yourself standing at the bottom of this huge mountain with nowhere to go but up. How do you do it? Of course, there are many ways in which to climb this proverbial mountain, but you must choose your own path; there is no one to guide you this time. You may have written a 15 page paper on the many ways to climb a mountain, but it is now up to you to decide which will be the way you take.
It's weird how even though I am only 22, I feel like I have the entire world staring me in the face saying "Well???". What have I accomplished in the past four years? Who have I become? How did I get here? Should I have done something differently? These are all questions that go through the mind of a has-been. When you're in college, it seems like you can conquer anything. But now, on the exit ramp, I start to wonder.
Regardless of how sad I get about leaving, I'M GONNA BE A TEACHER!!! WOOHOO!!! Take that and smoke it!
1 comment:
So glad to see you are on blogger. I would like to visit you on here, if you don't mind. I've always loved your writing.
And for the record...
EVERY college graduate has the same feelings when its time to be done. Every fall, and every spring--almost 10 years after my graduation from college--I get a feeling of nostalgia, and a "wish-I-could-go-back" feeling and I don't think that will ever leave.
You move on, as you did from high school, but you will never forget your college days and the times and friends spent there.
Looking VERY forward to your wedding. It's been on the calendar since we heard the news! Congratulations!
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